(All
human actions ... are on principle doomed to failure.)
-
Jean-Paul Sartre
„The
changes Alice and I affected in history were...“, Mr Tuniak started
today, but stopped when he saw that I had raised my hand. I had a
question that had bothered me for several days.
„The
history I learned at school, that was already the changed one,
right?“, I asked. „The one that happened, after you affected your
changes.“
„Yes“,
Mr Tuniak said after a moment's hesitation. „Apart of course from
things scientist in your time haven't discovered yet or have
misinterpreted.“
„Of
course“, I agreed. „But thanks to Madame Debarou you still have
notes about the original history, haven't you?“
Again
he hesitated before answering. „Those notes have been destroyed,
unfortunately. Are you asking because you want to know how the course
of history originally looked?“
„Among
other things, yes.“
„It
was pretty much the same as you now know it“, Mr Tuniak said. „As
I told, it is very difficult to change history. To change it and have
that change stick. That's why Alice and I often had to return to the
points we changes to make sure, these changes wouldn't simply be
glossed over or, in some cases, be reversed.“
Alexander
was once again waiting at an oasis in the desert, not far from
Baghdad. But when he saw a beggar coming his way, dressed in old rags
and walking slowly and bend forward, he immediately recognized Alice.
His suspicion was confirmed, when the beggar suddenly stood upright
and started to walk quicker. As she came closer, Alexander could see
in Alice's face that something had not gone according to their plans.
„What
went wrong?“, he asked.
„He
wrote a book”, Alice said. “About the history of science.
„That
cannot be all of it“, Alexander said. „He's got the potential for
so much more, he... he could be al-Jazari before al-Jazari himself.”
He shook his head. „Feodor's formula doesn't seem to work
particularly well here either, I'd say.“
„No,
it doesn't“, Alice agreed. „I'd say it's because the society is
too different. We got the best results in so-called Western Societies
between the end of the Second World War.“
Alexander
had to agree with her. And even then: Only seventy years after the
Second World War, the internet had come along and completely changed
the lives people again. A change, the formula was apparently unable
to cope with. Which made it all the more frustrating that it was the
only tool they had got. A scary thought.
„We
could once again try to introduce batteries in Old Babylon and hope
they spread this time...“, Alexander mused. „Or we bring glass to
the Chinese.“
Alice
looked at him in surprise. Compared to the Asian empires, the earlier
development of glass had given the European states a clear advantage
for a long time. Because of this, one of Alexander's first idea had
been to bring glass to the Asian continent, but they had eventually
decided against it. The consequences would have been too big and too
unpredictable to risk it. Alexander going back to this idea, only
showed how desperate he slowly became, when – one after another –
his plans didn't work out. He sometimes had the feeling as if he was
playing a game against an invisible opponent who was able to block
his every move.
„Let's
try to lead the Vikings to America first, okay“, Alice said.
„Did
you have an... invisible opponent?“, I asked.
„Except
time? No“, Mr Tuniak answered.
„You
say that as if time had a consciousness“, I said. It was supposed
to be a joke, but the way Mr Tuniak looked at me made clear that he
took this matter seriously.
„You
know, I'm not so sure about that“, he said after a while. „And
back then, I was close to believing anything really.“
Ota
Benga was sitting on a bench in front of the monkey's enclosure. The
animals had just been fed with fresh fruits and were immensely active
and jumping around because of that. They captured Benga's complete
attention, which is why for once he didn't notice all the visitors to
New York's Zoo. He hadn't even insulted a single one today.
„Do
you believe in destiny?“, a man, who looked to be about
thirty-five, asked. He had sat down next to Benga, without the latter
noticing it. Although the stranger was looking straight ahead, Benga
was sure that he wasn't looking at the monkeys.
„What?“,
Benga said.
„If
you could change history, would you do it?“, the stranger asked.
„If you had the ability to travel to the past and...“ Before
Benga could answer – and he was thinking of a cutting and maybe
insulting reply – the stranger continued. „But what if every
change you make gets reversed immediately? You give a man five dollar
and tell him to invest it. Five minutes later a pick-pocket steals
the five dollars off the man. It's as if you have done nothing in the
end. What does that mean?“
„What?“,
Benga asked, honestly curious. It had been a long time since someone
had talked to him as if he were a human being and not just another
exhibit.
„Does
it mean that there is no free will, because everything has to happen
a certain way? And because I am from the future, the past has already
happened for me. Must it therefore remain completely unchanged?“
„Is
this your religion you are talking about?“, Benga asked. „If so,
I have no interest in joining it.“
„It's
got nothing to do with religion“, the stranger said. „My mothers
once told me that time is like gravity. You do know gravity, don't
you?“
„Of
course“, said Benga, slightly insulted. Just because he was the
same size as a child, people often thought he only knew as much as a
child as well.
„Gravity
keeps us on this earth. Because of it we cannot fly“, the stranger
continued. „But no one would claim that gravity was impeding on
someone's free will because of that. And it is exactly the same with
time.“ The stranger hid his face in his hands. „But sometimes it
is difficult to believe that.“ He looked back at Benga. „I envy
you.“
„You
really don't“, Benga said.
Suddenly
the mood of the stranger changed. He stood up and seemed happy and
cheerful. His doubts and his desperation was gone. Benga immediately
saw the reason why. A woman was coming towards them and the stranger
obviously didn't want her to see what he was really feeling. The
woman didn't seem happy either.
“And?
What did they find?”, the stranger asked.
“Nothing,
they were wrong”, the woman said. “Tesla's notes are definitely
gone.”
Benga
saw how the stranger clenched his fists. Then he and the woman
started talking very quickly with each other, quickly and quietly.
Benga couldn't understand them any more. He continued watching them
and wondered about the unusual clothing they were wearing. Finally
they appeared to have reached a decision and the woman left again.
“I'm
sorry if I bothered you”, the stranger said to Benga. “You know
how you sometimes just have to say things out loud? And I couldn't
tell her... I don't know how she would react.” He said good-bye and
started to leave.
“But
why me?”, Benga asked. “The stuff you told me... Wouldn't a
professor of physics or philosophy or... whatever have suited you
better?”
The
stranger shrugged. “They would have told other people”, he said.
“And
why do you think I wouldn't tell others?”, Benga asked, although he
had to intention of actually doing that.
The
stranger spread his arms. “I'm sorry to say this, but no one is
going to believe you. You are living in a zoo!”
Benga
had to laugh. He didn't know why. The stranger had only said the
truth, the terrible, depressing truth. But still he had to laugh.
After a few moments, the stranger joined in.
“Did
you try to bring glass to China eventually?”, I asked.
“Nearly”,
Mr Tuniak said. “There were a few times, where we nearly did it.”
“What's
so important about glass?”
“You
can make windows out of it”, Mr Tuniak said. “And if you have
windows made out of glass instead of thin paper sheets or animal
skins, you have more and longer light which means you can work
longer. And of course you can make glasses out of it. Suddenly,
people who couldn't work before can read again. They are no longer at
a disadvantage.”
“And
why didn't you do it?”
“Because
I had forgotten something”, Mr Tuniak said. “I had forgotten
something at the Villa Atterton.”
“Has
anyone of you seen Alice or Alex?”, Sarina asked. She was standing
on a veranda and had shouted into the garden, where Petula, Lan,
Bill, Mowgli and Ali (who had come for a visit) were repairing their
bicycles.
“Not
in the last few days”, Petula said.
“Maybe
they are on their honeymoon”, Mowgli joked.
Sarina
rolled her eyes. “Alex has borrowed a book from me and I need it
back.”
“Then
just go to his room and take it”, Mowgli said. “I'm sure he won't
object to it.”
Reluctantly,
Sarina agreed with him. Not entering the room of someone else without
being invited, was the strictest of the unwritten rules on Leviathan.
Because there was very little space on the island, the little privacy
that was possible was especially valued.
Sarina
had a strange feeling therefore as she entered Alexander's room. It
was very tidy, as if its occupant had expected not to return for a
long time. She immediately saw the book she was looking for – a
book about early cultures in Polynesia – lying on the desk. She
took it and wanted to leave the room quickly again, when she saw that
one of the desk's drawers was partly open. She saw a book lying in
the drawer, a book that seemed to be very familiar. Eerily familiar.
She
opened the drawer. Her suspicion was right. It was another book about
early cultures in Polynesia. She put the two books side by side on
the desk. They looked completely identical. But why should Alexander
buy the same book a second time? And if he had bought a copy for
himself, why hadn't he returned her book?
Another
suspicion raised its head. Sarina opened both books. She couldn't
find any differences on the first page between them. She turned the
page. And another one. And another one. She turned them quicker and
quicker and wanted to stop, as she came to page thirty-four.
She
drew in a sharp breath. She had found a difference. And with it came
a terrible suspicion. She noticed how she began to shake slightly.
She couldn't hold her hands steady. It was only with some difficulty
that she could close the books. Then she ran out of the room,
pressing the books against her body. She had to find Miriam and Helen
as quickly as possible.
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